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Sunday, February 01, 2004

so...i dunno if anybody knows i still right in this xanga. o wellz..it can be my little secret. while i sit here and talk to myself. im going crazy and i can see myself break down at any moment here. LoL. thats funny.  You know why? im not getting attention....is that stupid or what? i want attention...i sit at home and i get ignored...and the only time i dont get ignored is when im needed for something or if im in trouble. im just left alone...i feel so ALONE. EVERYBODY is just like meh.  I'm not cheesy anymore...its the post-euphoria and that sucks. I still like him a lot though.  ALOT ...that's what im so afraid of. I donno...IM OVERANALYZING and thinkin too much..im just making myself worry and think to mcuh. i need to go hurt myself.....why do i insist on sitting here and talkin to myself? so much drama....Nhu and her husband. WHAT A DUMBASS...i donno if she even...whatever i dont care ne...i think everybody is in a lack of compassion now and it sucks.  kindness anyone?

 PLEASE?! HELLO!! FOR GOD SAKES IM WRITING IN AN ABANDONED XANGA...OF COURSE SOMEBODY'S GONNA SEE THIS RIGHT? BAGH!!!THIS IS HOW I WANT TO GET ATTENTION?! OF COURSE...*CRIES* I HATE THIS...SO MUCH  


Monday, November 24, 2003

new xanga site comin soon cos



NEW XANGA SITE COMING SOON! COS THIS ONE IS STUPID AND IT GOT MESSED UP AND I CANT FIX IT!


Sunday, November 23, 2003

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hehe

altho this is really old, i think that sometimes we have to go "aw" or be reminded of how much we love to hate and hate to love...
 
1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo
2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder
3. How cute they look when they sleep
4. the ease in which they fit into our arms
5. the way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right
     in the world
6. How cute they are when they eat
7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes
      it all worth while
8. because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside
9. the way they look good no matter what they wear
10. the way they fish for compliments even though you both know
       that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth
11. how cute they are when they argue
12. the way her hand always finds yours
13. the way they smile
14. the way you feel when you see their name on the call display
       after you just had a big fight
15. the way she says "lets not fight anymore" even though you know
       that an hour later....
16. the way they kiss when you do something nice for them
17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you'
18. actually... just the way they kiss you...
19. the way they fall into your arms when they cry
20. then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly
21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
22. then the way apologize when it does hurt ..(even though we don't
     admit it!)
23. the way they say "I miss you"
24. the way you miss them
25. the way their tears make you want to change the world so that it
     doesn't hurt her anymore

Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know   
that you would die without them... it matters not.  Because once in
your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to
you.  When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their
souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know
that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings
of  her very heart.  We love them for a million reasons, No paper would
do it justice.  It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart.  A
feeling.  Only felt.

Why Girls Like Guys




1. The way they always wear their favorite cologne (which happens to be the one that you bought them for their birthday)
2. The way the run their hands through out hair
3. The way that they look at you and you want to die right then and there
4. The way that they casually put their arms around you
5. The way that they kiss away your tears
6. ...and the way that they then get mad at how they can't make your problem go away
7. The way they show off around their friends, even though you both know that you would love them even if they missed a basket or two
8. How there eyes light up at the result of 3 hours of preparing for your date
9. How they always know just what to say to make you blush
10. How they sometimes think that they know just what to say to make you feel better, even if you think that it is the worst thing that they could say
11. The way they hold you close when you are cold
12. How they look at you when your mad at them and all your anger melts away
13. How they always smile when you are together
14. The way that they always let you win any game that you play together
15. ... and then when you point that out to them they pretend to not know what you are talking about
16. The way that they smile at you
17. The way that you feel when they call to apologize after you had a big fight
18. The way that they say I love you
19. The way that they say I love you in front of their friends
20. The way that they touch and hold you so gently, like they are afraid that they will break you
21. The way that they kiss you
22. The way that they open their arms to you when you are crying
23. The way that they never admit that you hurt them
24. The way that they try not to cry when they are afraid that they are losing you
25. The way that they think that they are your big protector, even though you think that you are theirs
26. The way that they say I miss you, even though they hate to admit it
27. The way that you miss everything about them when they are gone
28. The way that they remember your special moments, or aniversaries when you think that they forgot
29. The way that they apologize when they do forget
30. The way that they comfort you when you have a bad day
31. The way that you can't wait to get home and tell them all about your day
32. The way that they write you love letters even if they think that it is uncool
33. How they would rather be with you then their friends sometime
34. How you want to hug them even though they are all sweaty
35. Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them... it matters not. Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without a trace of sound, you know that your own life is inevitabley comsumed within the rhythimic beatings of his heart. We love them for a million reasons, No paper would do it justice. It is a thing a feeling, that is only felt.

awwwwww...*Sniffle* i wanna a sweetie i can love..but i dont want to force nething...lol NO IM NOT ON THE SEARCH FOR A BOYFRIEND like the others..ill take life as it comes ..i learned that last year


Saturday, November 22, 2003



so..im sitting here at my cousin's house on his black brand new computer..oMg it's such a hot computer...it was hand built..and its all cool cos it has a glass siding for the CPU and this like..8 speaker sound system...man the floor trembles! yaya! its all super crazy cool..he has a laser wireless mouse..wellz..yeah! i dunno this is sad that im sitting here droolin over a computer..AHH!

well neways..yesterday was family nite and that was fun! we ate so much..and we had so much desert!! sheesh. this cake thing was to die for.it was literally orgasmic

but yeah i came up last nite and chilled...chilled on the fone til bout 2? with MAH buddy! *poke* im winning! but yeah...had range this morning..and i did...EXCELLENT mite i say

alritey im gonna go with my mommy to subway now..cos im hungry

ttyl!
manda



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